Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
typical of you's lot eh? bit worried about heskey but hopefully we'll take him out lol!! you make me laugh, tell chickie kirsty to get back to bed, she's got an early morning..give her my love and wish her luck in her new job (6 hours from now) bless her, love and hugs your MUS chickie Teresa xxxxxxx
hey chcikie teresa MUS!!!! well you know what Drogba's like if he can't get a penalty out of a game he'll take a player out!! lol Bless him the little boy! lol We'll be ok got Lampard the hero to bail us out or Terry!! Love and hugs MHM CCC XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Melly, think you can get vanilla flavours too, the anorexic girls at work used to make these into hot coffee drinks, strange that im useing their tips for weight gain! xx
Shezie Labradors....ahh, I want one!! I agree with you about animals helping when being poorly and I so want another dog not just for myself but for giving Michaela more of a purpose of having to go for a walk with having a puppy, have been looking for a while now (though was looking for springer spaniels) but not many breeds available where we are :-( out of curiosity when selling them what's she asking for? xx
scarry this place is all right I use to work in castlmilk high rse tower blocks 5 of it was called mitchelhill we called it amityvill the house on the hill as it was on one of the highest points in glasgow he he and it was mental but so funny at time and other times so scary when I first started there over 9half years ago I thought I had walked into the bronx he he
How are things with you and Daz today hope you managed to get the drinks for him good idea about making them in to ice yum yum. Hope you had a better day thinking of you xxxxx CTSSFBMMxxxxx Teresa hello hun dont you ever sleep? hehe you have got to be worst than me hope you have had a good day smiling about uniform stories all day love and hugs CTSSFBMM xxxxxaka Suexxx
u no years ago I use to go to the gym yes that long ago .but I would go to the weilder shop and get crash weight gain in a tub 10 litre all u do is add milk to a couple off spoonfulls might be of use to someone trying to build up thier weight and strengh as it has nutrents in and tastes pretty good xxx paul3mel
hey my chickie twin sis sue flat butty mophead madwoman!!! lol How you doing sweetie? Daz is still very tired but we did get to visit his mum today for an hour so nice to get out for a bit. i think now the chemo has stopped and as the effects wear off he will start to feel a bit more energetic. Well he sadi he hopes to anyway bless him. Hope you have had an okish day today my little twin sis Love and big hugs your twin sis MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey paul have accepted your friend request. Hope your'e not getting too freaked out there tonight? lol Bless you do you want us girlies to come hold your hand? lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
