Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey my chickie strawberry shortcake Shell I don't need any gold awards babe just knowing my chickies are happy, fighting and courageous is an award enough for me!! If you're all happy then that's all that matters sweet as that makes me feel i have helped at least one person feel better about themselves. You're welcome to post to me any time you like sweet and i will try my best to help and support you. I don't have all the answers and sometimes i feel i'm not much help and i'm certain i sometimes say the wrong things! But i do care and love all my chickie very very much so never forget that Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie Dianne Iv'e just sat here an eaten 5 wagon wheels!!! lol Didn't even realise what a little greedy moo i am !! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxx
i know u keep telling me no need for thanks hun, but i cant help it, i really do feel as tho i ned to say a great big THANK YOU . i keep saying it because i never had the help and support last time so went thru it on my own literally and am just so greatful to u all xoxoxoxoxoxox
shell, we will be here for you every step of the way, dont think you could get rid of us if you tried lol MHM, 5 wagon wheels? think theres 6 in the pack so got 1 more to go, probably showing my age now but didnt they used to be a lot bigger?
hey my chickie strawberry shortcake Shell I'm gonna slap you with me wet lettuce leaf in a mo you keep thanking me! lol Only joking by the way! I have Msn babe why!s that? Sorry for the delay i was making a cuppa as was gasping Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie Dianne yeah i think they used to be bigger mind it could be just our mouths got bigger! lol Well mine has anyway! lol This was a pk of 9 as got 3 free so only four more to go!! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxx
hey my chickie strawberry shortcake Shell These names just get longer and longer! lol Give me your msn addy as a p/m ok as you don't want weird peole geting it and sending you funny messages if you know what i mean? love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxx
hey my rooster of lurve How you diddling have you got over your self inflicted headache now? lol You are so clever how do you do it? lol That should sort the chickies out now for sure Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxx
