Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Lynne, nice to hear from you again (i stick to this site now cos of you know who, im surprised she not invaded here), you dont sound blond (sorry again to all blondes) but then your's is out of a bottle like my mums!!!. I hope you and Rob are ok, hows he doing? love and hugs Teresa xxxx
Yeah, they really do do a wonderful job. Haha, there's a few parking attendants there now. But there's one that seems to be there more than the others, he's quite skinny and has (this sounds nasty) horrible teeth lol that's the only way I can describe him. Anyway, I'm going to switch my laptop off and try to get some sleep. Thanks for the chat and sorry to barge in!! Take care xxx
Hi Karen having read the last few posts (cant believe how many I missed) I know Lynne gone to bed was just nice that she posting again although I not spoke to her many times but she seems to be like our mother hen mel on her thread to others. Im not bad, has kate gone to bed? xxxxxx
yeah lynne is lovely too isnt she?. kate said she coming back soon unless she looking for that straight jacket lol, i bet your knackered, what time u going to hospital?
Dear Hayley Im so sorry babe that you've been affected by this, Ive requested you as a friend as my daughter is the same age as you and in hospital at the minute, I hope you dont mind me asking what your 1st symptoms were (though there no talk of that with Michaela) but she has several enlarged lymph nodes and they doing blood tests daily, I hope you dont mind me asking? sending you lots of love and hugs and the bestest of wishes Teresa xxxxxxxxxxxx
