Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Ha ha RoFl ... rooster,..........................ole dodgy eyes ..................................... Way to go Kirst, still standin.........macaroni cheese and............................physic powers....................yay
Dear MHM Does likkle Kirsty have a sixth sense then...that was weird about the house and the gypsy lady! bet that definately put the willies up ya XXXXXXX
hey chickies Kirsty still scares me sometimes she's well weird!! I was gonna say she puts the willies up me but that just sounded so wrong! lol love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxx
hey you lot Something weird just happened here Just picked up a pouch of baccy to roll a fag Put it next to me on the sofa Just read your posts and replied Went to pick baccy up....... and it's back on the table.............. Freekin heck iv'e pooped me pants now!!! lol love and hugs scared pooping MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey foggy if you leave me now you take away the very heart of me! Ohh ohh wooow baby please don't go!!! Love and leave you then mate hope you liked me little lullaby! lol Sleep well catch up soon love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Me thinks you've got company Mother Hen ooooooooooooooo!!!! xxxxxxx either that or Kirsty know's you've been talking about her lol!!
