Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
MHM, I do know what Trigeminal neuralgia is, though I don't know what it really feels like, it must be agonising to have it that badly! no wonder you can cope with toothache! but do take care, and try to get anti-bio's, as you sound like you need them....
chickies helen and dianne Our anthem on here is.......................wait for it..................'i get knocked down but i get up again'!!!! lol love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
chickie helen No worries babe i will tell the dentist when i eventually get to see him/her! Thank you for that though With TN they do try drugs first but every single one of them i was allergic to! Had really bad rashes and swollen face etc so thats why they resorted to surgery. I was just unlucky me thinks. Mind not a total cure as got told only lasts for 5-10 years but i'm not worried about that at the mo got my lovely Daz to think about and worry about now! love you loads much love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
MHM, you need to look after yourself too as you need to be well to look after your Daz! there, that told you off now!!!!! but it is in love that I ask you to make sure you do take care.....where would we all be?
chickie Helen Wow you told me off!! lol You can be my adopted mum then!!! hahaha that taught you a lesson eh? lol I will keep well as i know Daz needs me as he has been so unwell recently. Do you know if his tiredness may be down to the radio he had 5 weeks ago? He had it on his head. It's just this tiredness i'm really concerned about as he is sleeping loads. He gets up in the afternoon then an hour after getting up he is asleep again. Is this normal? He has no energy and is very lethargic too and hardly has any energy to do anything of go anywhere. Love Daz to bits but i am getting a bit worried now as he was doing so well till he had radio now it sems to have all gone downhill. love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
MHM, I'm sorry, I really know less than you about what your lovely man has, Cancer didn't come into my professional life, unless to make sure equipment was ready to hand for help at home....., and am of course sorry to tell you off, hope I didn't offend you? but you must take care! you really must, love you lots......
chickie Helen No worries babe just thought i'd ask in case you knew so not a problem ok? I wasn't offended with you telling me off I like it really makes me feel loved! lol You could never offnd me hun you're too nice for that anyway i know you only tell me off cos you care! If you didn't care then you wouldn't worry about me eh? lol Anyway hope you have a good rest of the evening i gotta go for a bit as got to make hot drinks for the brood here If you are gone when i come back i hope you have a restful night and hope to catch up with you again soon You take care hun my adopted mummy! lol
Love you loads sleep well love and big hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxx
MHM, that is great, you take me under your wing and then adopt me as a mum too!!!!! that made me giggle!!!! ok, will be having another early night, will probably have lots of dreams, always do, the second night of recovering, lol!!! take care, love......
hey chickie teresa, Glad i caught you........... humpf!!!!! LOL Just making hot drinks then be back ok? Hope you and our Michaela are ok? love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
