Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
night night chickie teresa hope you and Michaela have a good day tomorrow sleep well yourself too and don't forget i got my spy on here who will be making sure you're being good! lol love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I went to a dinner dance at my wife's place and when she got home on the Monday she kept calling me her 'Treasure'. After a while I said "what's all this 'treasure' business?". She said "All the girls at work asked me where I'd dug you up !".
Bless you ole foggy...you have such a great sense of humour (get a feeling you are very much like my Dad was) I was always cheeky to him as well (banter wise and having a laugh) just think that sometimes my sense of humour runs away with me but obviously not with you!! ;-)
