Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Hi Moomy Bless poor Caz getting prank phone call and then couldn't sleep, other than that how is she doing? Sausage and mash sound lovely but with baked beans AND cauliflower? seems a bit of a strange combo, mine and Michaela's mismatch is usually home made mint sauce gravy when her taste buds are up to it!! xxxx
Hey feathered friends Teresa its always madness and chaos in Chez Kate, Helen, calm if onlys ??? Dad half an hour ago took a massive slug of DBs morphine, reckons his arthritis playing up,, I told him not too, Did my best to warn him, just had to help him to bed cos hes trolleyed off his head, DBs got the right hump, cos her hubbys wrecked
Im howling, oks I shouldnt but serves the old bugger right, dont mess with anyone elses meds
Shouldnt laugh but cant help it Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Kate I love ya..you made me laugh for the 1st time today, though shouldn't take other people's meds I laughed thinking about your Dad being off his trolley and DB having the hump with him!! how you doing Babe? xxxxxxx
Hi Donn ou hunny bun were sleeping and dreaming of cake!!! As if I would dare to interupt that dream, I read your posts earlier as to your intents re Paul and squirrels, I ain't that brave - lololol
Thanks for your kind words, it does mean so much, i have read your profile and i am so sorry about your dad. It is so hard when you love someone that much, my dad is my everything i love him too bits!!!! That form you get from the Dr's, when i asked our Dr before about benefits, he said we are trying to cure your dad. We havn't been given a time scale yet.(but i wouldn't want to know). I thought those forms were if you had less than 6 months?
Thanks again. Love Jacq xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi Donna Nice to hear from you, how are you keeping hun? things still the same here Michaela is having day 15 of 2nd course of chemo on Monday..only 4 more to go and possibly radiotherapy too but has not been as poorly as she was last time round, hope things are good with you and all, lots of love and ((((hugs)))) Teresa xxxxxxx
