Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Karen, have p/m you my telephone numbers for you to pass on so thanks babe for that. I do blame you for that enormouse easter egg i knew i should have shared it!! lol wonder if it's ok to eat choccy covered carrot sticks? lol That sounds quite nice actually have to try that!!!! lol Thanks alot for the glass of water but it's not the same is it! lol If any of you hear from mick tell him i said hi and hope alls ok, and that i need help on here to keep you all in order!!! Have missed him loads too.
Hey Mam Hen I missed you too lots and lots, go on have a couple of slugs ha ha I aint gonna tell ,love you very very muchxxxxx Nurse Gladwys Love you too babes very very proud of you, thanks for being you, I still on the erm tea lol Juls Thought youd gone a bobey "sleep Karen" on a careing mission bless your heart Rooster Chicks are a pineing, come back hope you aint under pressure to always be funny mate, we chicks are always gonna love you, so come back ok?
hey mel thanks for numbers hun, have just sent you a p/m, i will pass them on in morning, she will be so pleased bless her. i know i hope micks ok too.
i added a little something just for you in that water babe!!!
Hey Kate thanks for the permission to have a couple of 'slugs' and glad you won't tell! lol Actually i wonder what choccy slugs taste like!!!!!!! Now i'm grossing you all out! lol But they may be tasty i may have to try! lol In for a penny in for a pound as they say!
Karen thanks for p/m you're very sweet but i meant what i said so remember that ok?
Karen, you made me laugh!!! It's bad cos i'm craving choccy even more now, and firemen with choccy sound even better!!!
I must try to think of something else!! me thinks this is gonna be harder then i thought! lol I'm gonna turn into a homer simpson!! AAAAHHHHH ! lol eeeeeeeeeemmmmmmmmmmm CHOCCYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!! love an hugs mother hen mel with choccy firemen xxxx
