Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
why has she been barred from here, please forgive my ignorance but surely if she is goin through prob the most traumatic part of the journey right now then will she not need her friends on here for support...is this not what this site is for, i am pretty new on here so if i ahve offended someone or said the wrong thing then forgive me please, but i really thought this forum was about people like us that are suffering this awful disease called cancer and this website was set up to help people like kate right now, please consider this whoever is in charge jo xx kate we are there with u if u r able to read this,
Im not quite sure we think perhaps her moan about the NHS. I totally agree that she should be able to come on and that its not fair but she knows we are all thinking of her at this terrible time and with or without the site she is not alone.
hi ratchet well i am glad she has her friends support, i have followed her thread and she comes across as a fab strong person so when it comes to times like this i feel i have to post, sorry for bringing up the situation, hopefully she comes through tonight, what an awful time, please give her this strangers love when u speak to her again, thanks jo xx
please pass onto kate my love and im thinking about her at this very diffucult worrying time,and was shocked ro read the news of her mom and send all my hope to them both for a positive outcome,sending a great big hug to them both and loads of love too
kate has been so loveley to me as has every one else
I'm so glad you have just rung me, you're welcome to anytime!!!! I'm always here for you sweet and always will be. If you ever need me just shout ok cos i'm always here for you forever and ever. I will be thinking of you and our duracell bunny your dad and brother, so please remember i'm here for you. Ring me email me or p/m me any time you like sweetie i'm always here
OOOhhh lynne I found it, Mellymoo thankyou xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
ICU just called duracell bunny is awake and doing ok, no tumours in bowel a big rip that has been repaired, we got her in there in time !!! Oks so now she has a trachy, a breast gone and from tonight a colstmy too, shes like bionic woman, im so happy, duracell bunny keeps going on and on hey, thanks girls you saved my sanity, oh my god, cant believe she come thru love you both very very much thankyou for being my saviours Duracell bunny yay ! in icu now know doubts giving them what for ha ha Charlies( katies) angels your mission is complete, im in shock xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxlove love you both xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
