Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey chickie kate That made me laugh so much nearly burt me self with me fag! lol Poor chickie teresa we'll have to have a whip round! lol Or just whip her whichever she prefers! oh er missus!! Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickies and rooster foggy Have to go up the wooden hill to bedfordshire now sorry to have to love and leave you all Got daz work mates round tomorrow/today so gotta put me waitress uniform on! lol Speak to you all again very soon You all be good Big bro you keep them chickies in order while i'm away! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx Night night sleep tight sweet dreams and see you all soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
