Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Do you blame them?? lol... when we go to Soccer Aid I will get you and Daz a program and send my mum on the pitch to get autographs, when we went 2 years ago they allowed the children on the pitch before the match started to get autographs, mum could get away with that (height wise) but failing that if ole 'Frankie's' on the pitch then I'll be up there, if he's not there will you settle for Ant and Dec's?? xxxxx
Teresa tried to send you a couple of pictures of Tina ,not much better using the phone so if you get strange pictures its only me....................xx
hey chickie teresa Thanks for that babe really would appreciate it. One of daleys mate was in town last weekend and saw peter bonettie (sp) an ex chelsea and england goal keeper. Daleys mate sam got peter to ring daz but we was on the phone at the time sorting british gas out!! lol How sickening eh? Sam did get peters autograph and a dvd of his too bless him. Shame about the call though blame british gas for that! lol Any autographs you can get of chelsea players etc would be very much appreciated so thank you and your diddy mum! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie kate Just replied to you too!! We could be doing this all night ! lol Poor other chickies will feel left out! Hey chickie teresa you still awake or do you need a prod? lol Well i'll peck ya instead see if that works....................PECK...............PECK??????????????????? better work or i'll get ole foggy to cock-a-doodle-doo!!!! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie kate Daley just said if your still on top in june then you deserve all the credit you're gonna get! If not you will prob fade into obscurity!! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey Shezie...got you pics and text you back, my phone being a sod at the minute so don't know if you got reply....Tina's lovely...i want a baby 1!! xxxx
I will reply to all the banter in a mo, ragein for a smokie wokie, dads back so im back to dangling out the back bedroom window, risking life and limb lol, if only he could see me past few weeks with feet on the coffee table wiffing away, i could put me foot down but its his home his rules and you all know how well behaved I am .......................................................ha ha
