Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hi hun i just read about your dad shezie and i just want to say im so sorry to hear what you have been told by his mc millan nurse my love and thoughts are with you xxxx
Mamma Melly Moos You aint ever getting shut of me, Charles is still in our life from Aussie, Lynne from Spain, Donna from the USA, maybes Kate from Portugal, never getting shut of me, just more places for you to visit, if it it goes ok xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx If not I come back to the Uk and still no worries, your never gonna miss me cos Im always gonna be bugging you lol xxxxxxxxxx
Thanx shell, he doin ok at the mo, like Kate said am takin every day one step at a time, and doin nice things with him,hes comin over to mine at weekend again so lookin forward to that.Mac nurse gonna try and supply me with comfy,reclining chair for him, just have to keep the dog off it!...........xx
ha ha ha shez, mills and boon he he it may all go tits up but it will all pale in comparison to loseing my DB Teresa chick, anytime, easyjet flights then are only £60 return.............happy days hey
hey chickie kate Just sent you a p/m babe Love ya so much and know you will always keep in contact just i'm the MHM so have trouble letting me likkle chickies fly the nest eh? lol I really do wish you all the best sweet and hope i get a wedding invite! lol See i'm marrying you off already! hahahah Loves ya my little chickie You teresa, and Karen me first original chickies remember the early days eh? Had some fun times didn't we? Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Yeh a wedding Kate, no pressure, but just think how that news would lift the spirits of people on this site he he .............. shell hun how you doing today? done anything nice/ xx
Big group (((((((hugs))))))), yeah I remember the early days without which I wouldn't have got through what I've had to (same as all of us on here!!) xxxx
im so glad he is ok and i bet your so happy to have your dad at home with you this week end there was me telling you about my problem and you have got enouph on your mind hun im sorry about that xxx
hey chickie teresa Yeah we had some fun babe it was so funny!! Remeber when the neighbours were on the rampage when we had a lorry full of choccy delivered at about 3am? lol That was so funny they still ain't forgiven me for that! Wonder why? lol Love and hgs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
