Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Hi Kate, glad your dad had a good hol and gave him a bit of a pick up that he deserves.Aren,t you goin yourself soon? sun,sea and sand, the best medicene..................hows you romance goin with your taxi driver? Lol xx
Hey teresa , poor you lot , ha ha but my laptop tinternet connection is worldwide, , mate you aint ever getting shut of me, I will get where castor oil wont, yuck not such a good descripten but ya get my drift yeah Im off in a bit, maybe a fortnight reckons I need to get Dad some home help/cleaner sorted first asked him tonight if he could live abroad and he said no way......... well I cant live here mate mum is everywhere.........
Hey Shez no way, I made dad give him his metal detector back pretending I wasnt in, looks a little like Peter Sutcliffe, sooo not my type he he he xxxxxxx
hey my chickies Hows everyone diddling tonight? Hey chickie shezie hows me hen today atill being bossy? Hey chickie kate hows ya diddling babe? Hey chickie teresa hows ya diddling babe? Love an hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Yeh, glad to hear it Kate...don't want you leaving us, but the break'll do you good eh? likkle one's been ok the past 2 days, 1st time in almost 6 months that she's not been in bed all day and continually moody, she looks so cute as her hair is starting to grow back...seeing Radiotherapist at UCH tomorrow (she a bit down about that but just one more hurdle eh?)
Taxi driver looked like Peter Sutcliffe?? poor you, you may meet your Frankie Lampard or Becks in Portugal...when you off? I might come with ya xxxx
hey chickie teresa I told you to keep ya hands off Lampard he's mine! lol Glad our baby chick a little better bless her and good luck with radio tell her i love her to bits and go kick ass!! as chickie kate would say! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh seeing you mellymammamoo makes me grin from ear to ear still of the sauce you will be glad to hear but somehow still goin totally doolally Chickie Kate How are you, Daz and chicklets doodle doin??? Buckets and trillions of love Kate xxxxxxxxxxx
