Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Hi Karen and everyone Met up with dads mac nurse today,for a drink .He is such a nice bloke and gives me lots of support,was able to ask him things without my parents present,he did indicate to me that dad may not b here for xmas,i dont think that its sunk in,or i just dont want to believe it, he still looks soo well,considering. Anyway i then went to visit a reind id not seen in a while,and as usual we didnt stop talking,barely drawin breath,and had a few laughs so that picked me upWhen i got home,i went down the garden to feed my animals, and found 4 baby guinea pigs, i didnt no any of them were pregnant, must have been an immaculate conception!! they are soo cute, i now have 20 altogether.Anyone want a guinea pig? xx
Hi Shezie hun...Sorry about the news that you were given today from your Dad's mac nurse, although no consolation but in Aug last year Dad was given 3 weeks and went on for a further 6 months, everyone is diffferent eh? glad you had a few laughs with your friend, helps don't it? so you're now a mother of 4 more and didn't know, didn't think there was such a thing as an immaculate conception lol!! hugs and love Teresa xxxx
The girls and boys are all in separate hutches, thought id got it right!.......... will have to pick them all up and shake them to see if they rattle...................... but would it b males or females that rattle? Dad used to tell me this was the way to tell the difference wen i was little.and , also if you pick them up by thier tails their eyes will fall out(for those that dont no,ginea pigs dont have tails)Lol Wish i was that little girl again Listen to me ,i sound like some mad,fanatical, animal loving woman.Oh but i am...................xx
Well Dad is back from Portugal and from 3pm till 10.30pm I have heard nothing but he said, she said, I ate, they ate, all the photos, thank god he has no slides hee hee, just jestin, it has done him the world of good, no substitute for mum and he was very sad at times but on the whole his trip was a success.................but my head is bustin lol Hows everyone doing? please buddys give me a distraction Hey aussie Charles, sorry I missed you the other night Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey Kate me mate.....glad you're dad had a good time, does that mean you're goin to be leaving us soon?? :-( know what you mean about the he said, she said, he ate, she ate....bless em, makes you feel you've actually been away with them don't it? My mum's like that after a trip to sainsbury's (lol!!)..gawd help us when she goes away end of september to Magaluf, xxxx
Dear Shez i have just read back a little, sorry about your news but babe take it , the mac nurses know, I didnt take it and wanted to bop DBs on the nose, when the poor girl only told me the truth, make every second count with him hey leave nothing unsaid As for Guinea pigs I would love one, but my fur babies are hunters so I would fear for its life Hey Teresa Babe hows our likkle one?
