Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Sleep well in the Windy City Mick...nearly typed Wity Cindy, don't think I've ever met one of them, what about you? lol!!, eyes going now as tired so off up the wooden hill..sweet dreams :-) xxxx
Feathers in Leathers ha ha!!... I'm now sitting here laughing, good thing as was crying earlier...I really need to get out more really don't I? sad ole cow...
Hey chikky Teresa, feathers in leathers, made me laugh out loud, perhaps I should get out more too, hope your ok today love, you and our likkle celeb Michaela xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Mel, mother hen hope you got some sleep babe, worry about what fuel your running on, moo juice lol, Dbs like Darryl no point going to hospital over the weekend, roll on Tuesday to put your minds at rest, xxxxxxxxxxxxx the teeth must be agony, feelin it for ya babe
Juls, half term hurrah, now please re-charge you are such a busy lady, worry about you, happy birthday to Richard, you bakeing a cake? lol, as you know db cant eat, joked there would be that many candles we may as well just set fire to the lawn ha ha xxxxxxxxx
Morning Helen how are you?, hope Caz got a good nights rest, you too, your very special to me, talented chikks xxxxxxxxxx
Ole foggy, soo glad you didnt go out on that bike last night, bravery juice an all, lovein your humour, very tasty pic ha ha xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Chikky karen, your off for the weekend yay, nurse gladwys emmanuel ha ha, have a good one babe you deserve it, love ya xxxxxxxxxxxx
Donna hope Paul feeds you today, great to see you posting your a tough chikky Im a massive fan xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Jacq, hope you get the money worries sorted, like you and your dad aint got enough on your plate hey, thinking of you love, stay strong, things have to get better xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Kimmy tortoise chikster, pmd you, hope you are ok, think of you an awful lot, " unforgettable thats what you are" lol xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Helly, you ok sweet, not seen you about, hope you and keith are just fine and just busy bein loved up xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Chicken Charles your grandson such a cutie pie, you have a fab trip you deserve it xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Oks now my heads gone if Ive left anyone out forgive me, been a long night, DB couldnt get her breath for most of it, nebuliser machine helped though, sleeping now thank god, Im shattered hence my usual rubbish I post
Lovein you all hope today is kind Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Oh, chickie Kate, so sorry you were up most of the night, DB asleep thank goodness she is breathing easier now......love ya, babes....take care and get some rest yourself, sweetheart!
Krusty,( hope you really have a better name, lol,) welcome.....
Krusty is it Dawn or Kirsten we have here??? either way morning!!
Helly long time no chat, how are you doing?
Kimmy do post and say how you are doing!
Jaq sorry I missed you yesterday, hope you are well
Hey my mate Karen how ya doing ......... I said how ya doing ??
Foggy ............. morning feathers / leathers/ bikes arrggghhh too much for me old brain to sort hehehe
Twomble I hope you and Michaela are doing well
MHM and family - I really hope you get them teeth sorted, this is silly far too long from your frist call! I hope Daz has a good day and you both can enjoy the BH weekend
Hey chikky Dawn and likkle chikky Kirsten, hope today is kind to you both and your feeling a little stronger,
Happy you found us, keep posting here our mother hen mel just gonna love ya both and haveing more chicks on board xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Morning chikky Helen appear like an angel, thanks for being you love, dont worry I will get some shut eye later too much to do, fur babies Dad etc xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Oh friends Dbs just had another bad breathing bout, just nebulised her again, gave her more drugs, sat behind her cradeling her, oh mates whys this happen to us all hey? just wanna sob now Im tired so everthing getting to me Need your hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
