Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
chickie Juls I agree babe these girls do drive us crazy but we do love them really The funny thing is Daley is opposite to kirsty he hangs all his clothes to dry and never uses the dryer1 Mind could be that he's a man and a bit stingey as men can be sometimes! lol Pity his poor wife when he ever gets married he'll be a right nag bless him! lol
Hey foggy me ole mate good to see you about again! Hope you have had a good day Fancy getting chucked out the cafe i'd have stern words about that! lol
hey chickie Juls think i will have to enlarge that and print it off to stick on their badroom doors! lol Thought that was great and very funny! Not sure they'll take the hint though! lol
night night chickies gonna try to get some kip now while the goings good so to speak! lol Hope to catch up with you all soon you all take care and be good. Well try to be anyway or ole foggy will grass you up to me! hehehe Lovely pic foggy the good ole days eh? Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
