Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
I can't have choccy no more as found out today have high cholesterol 7.6!!!!! wonder what battered covered in choccky tastes like!!!! lol wonder if thats the same as battered mars bars??????? lol love an hugs mother hen mel xxxx
What you should do is freeze the mars bar overnight, Then batter it and deep fry it about three minutes. It sticks to your teeth the roof of your mouth and your intestines. In fact it sticketh closer than a brother
Hi kate lovely message you sent me thankyou,so releived DB is now out ot intensive care,your mom so strong and you follow your mom XXXXXXX MOTHER HEN MEL What would this thread be without you and surrogate mom and special chickies,so pleased darryl has date for radio,hope your results were good Karen-you've been a great support to me,glad the birthday party went well Teresa,so happy that micheala now out of hospital and,love to you both Moomy love you too Hello to juls and helen, read your posts,have read your wonderfull messages of support to everyone,you sound just like everyone here (very special),thankyou To all my friends here I have been reading all your posts this week and have been really worried about you and loved ones and although i have not posted any messages i have been holding you all close in my heart and i did go out to look at the moon at 10pm one evening,please dont ever think i dont care,and i know you all care about me,100% effort from me from now on,what would i do without you,love you all so much ,i am here for you and back posting again,maybe abit slow though,here for the next hour or so (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))) and XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX to you all luv kim XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Hey Charles Sorry your sleepless in seattle ooh I mean Wales, Im also in Wales, Do you have a cup of sugar??? Karen your mission is complete I am sooo very cheered up, Thankyou chikkies and Hen
