Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Hi Graeme...how's things, how did you get on with your footy bets this weekend? me, Michaela and my mum went to Wembley today to see Soccer Aid...was a great day and what a stadium, hope alls well :-)
Hi Graeme, Me good tonite ,hows you? yup caught the mouse and let it go in the field don,t get many gulls here,infact sadly not many birds at all, thanx to the cats, mine are quite active,they soo proud wen they bring me something home, then the dog gets involved...........chaos just listening to "300% dynamite" cd xx
hello again had to go to a little domestic there only just back .thats the police away now and a can get ma cuppa now how are u all .when u talk about mice my nephew has those dumbo ear rats they give me the willys ha ha xxxxxxxto u all paul3mel
Hi paul, never a dull moment ! i used to have a pet white rat called Boo Radley (as in "to kill a mocking bird") now i just got a radley handbag lol xx
Hi Paul...sounds like a normal night for you again then eh? Rats?? my uncle used to have gerbils, they petrified me but he'd insist on me holding them, only would do with leg warmers on my arms and woolly gloves on lol!! xxxx
Dear Charles, dont worry,i intend to, hes taught me soo much,i am the person i am because of him,he still looks after me at my age,he thinks i dont listen to his advice,but its all stored for wen i need it .Lots of love to you,wish i had great words of wisdom to give to you xx
