Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
my friend lives on a farm!! rich bitch, she sellin them for about £400 i think, i thought about smugglin one in my coat and hope she dont miss it!! ever thought about a greyhound another friend has 4 contrary to belief they couch potatoes, and usually free .There r soo many want homes wen retired from racing,otherwise get put down, am i pullin at your heart strings!?
Paul, "dont look now, but someones behind you" Lol xx
Paul...amityville? that's one film I can't watch, well actually that and halloween mind you I could get freaked out at eastenders lol!! enjoy the night shift eh? oh and another one that I can't even watch the advert for is the shining x
Twin Sis MHM Glad that you and Daz managed to get for a while today dont know about you but weather wasnt to bad here i actually got wind burnt again lol cant say sun because there never is any is there lol. i hope Daz does get his engery back soon and he feels better than he does now bless him my day started at 6.15 with a friend (girl/lady) asking me to go round and change her tyre as she never done one before........erm hello i have never changed a tyre before anyway i did it (thats a first for me now know how to do it) but i kept phoning her to make sure wheel hadnt fallen off on her way to work lol then had to go and babysit an 16month 3year old and 10 year old which was great until 4 then had to shoot 20 miles to baby sit for an 8 and 11 year old they were good to we played on the wII until 11. and i got told of for letting them stay up oh well never mind so all in all havent seen my lot as by the time i got in they were all asleep nice! habent heard from the little S**T today not bothered tomorrow im decorating my bathroom yipee cant wait hate decorating but its got to be done Love and hugs Chickie Twin Sis Sue Flat Butty Mophead Madwomanxxxx
I got moved here when they blew them up 2hlf years ago it still mad here but it has its good points this job can throw all sorts at you I stoped a woman throwing herself over the motorwy bridge there was a boble murder last year in one flat and a mental patient threatend to cut my head of with a sword becuse I told him he could not get ride off his imaginary beasties buy useing his shower hose on the floor on full and flooding eight floors below him he he we have a lot of good tenants too xxxxx
Hi CTSFBMM aka Sue (did I get it right again???) I was in the land of nod but I got knocked off me perch by either MHM, shezie or paul, been smiling today about the uniform stories (sounds a bit kinky don't it lol!!) among others I've been thinking of.. hope you ok hun (((((hugs))))) and much love, just had a thought regards uniforms...St.Trinians, remember that? xxxxxxx
hey my chickie twin sis sue flat butty mophead madwoman So glad you have had a nice day abeit a very busy one! lol little ones keep you busy but also keep you young too eh? Glad not heard from the little s**t today that must be a relief1 Good for you changing a tyre see you can do anything you put your mind too. I can do basic car stuff too so always handy. Mind daz got me to strip down an engine and put it back together again once when we was changng ehgines in a car. That was fun and i loved it i love getting all greasy and dirty!! lol Good job foggys not about i'm sure he'd have a reply to that! lol Love and hugs your twin sis MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey paul You sound like you live with the munsters!! lol No offence meant though matey so hope haven't offended? You have a right bunch where you are but they keep you on your toes eh? lol Glad you got some good tenents too though Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie teresa Think that was me giving you that prod that woke you up! lol Stop dreaming of lampard he's mine!!! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
