Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Shezie..not being funny mate but sod your manager 1) you deserve a night out and 2) you could come home with another little one!! what do you have now and what has your friend got? when I was back n forth to Wymondham we had 2 springer spaniels (mum n daughter) he took them both and I miss them so much, am so tempted to get another but not the right time to...we're not bad, Michaela been in bed most of the day and feeling uncomfortable again, that'll be nice for you to have a party for your Dad, might do him some good eh? xx
hey chickie shezie The fortisips have come in bottles will they be ok to freeze in them as don't want them to explode in me freezer!! lol Glad my melly hen keeping you under control someone has to eh? lol What dogs do you have? I have a very naughty beagle called essien if you want another one? lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie teresa Wot you still doing up? Hope you're being a good chickie today? Sorry our baby chick a little tired today same as daz there bless them both eh? love and hugs your MHM CCC xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey my CCC MHM Was it you that pushed me off my perch or me you?!! Hope you ok and glad that Daz has managed a little fortisip, like you say it's a start and phaps as time goes on he'll get more used to them and be able to manage more, you could always make them up to the max with milk then freeze them in half portions as they do keep for up to 24hrs...how are daley and kirsty?
Now on a serious note, how do you think you'll do this weekend...Wigan, tough one eh lol!! Much love and hugs to all, your MUS!! xxxxx
My man nos he,d never get custody of my dog, bless him.Tinas a border collie, wouldnt b without her, obsessed with playin ball, very intelligent, do get another dog.My friends pups are labs, black and golden, can imagine me while every1 partying, traipsing round her farm in all my finery, playin with the animals!!Think animals help alot wen we poorly, might help micheala!!!! xx
Melly, thought fortisips came in cartons, peraps you could decant them into lolly maker thing, or ice cubes, have heard pineapple ice cubes can stimulate appetite, they also have an anaesthetic quality!!! xx
Hi Paul Doing the night shift? is there not a spooky film about the night shift and something to do with zombies, are you working on your own? If so, excuse the pun, but you must have balls of steel... xx
hey my chickie teresa MUS!!! lol I tried one of them fortisips i thought they were lovely!! lol Still if daz don't drink it all i can always finish it off for him! lol Just joking there by the way! Daley and Kirsty are both fine, Kirsty starts her new job in morrisons restaurant tomorrow morn at 9am went to bed at 11pm got back up at 11.45 as couldn't sleep and shes still up now!!! Think she takes after her mum never sleeps! hahaha Essie doodles has been a little scamp as usual never ending energy that dog mind bless him haven't been able to take him out for a good run recently what with one thing and another so he's been going mad running round the garden!! Wigan sun well we will win as usual!! lol I mite regret saying that though have to wait and see. Mind bit worried bout heskey for wigan but hopefully we take him out eh? lol Love and hugs MHM CCC xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Talkin bout horror films,I used to work on a secure ward,and watched silence of the lambs whilst doing a nite shift,wen i wanted to go to the loo had to get my male colleague to go with me, hope we not spookin you paul xx
hey chickie shezie The lolly moulds are a good idea i'll buy some very soon. I think the fortisips do come in cartons too but the ones we got were in plastic bottles. Thanks for the advice though Daz hates all fruit except banana's so bit stuck for other fruit for him and the only veg he eats are peas and carrots so i said i'll make him a pea pie then! lol Just joking bout that though how awful that would be hahaha Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey Paul Sorry didn't realise you was about hope you're not too busy at work and ignore my chickies trying to scare you with there naughty ways about ghost stories!! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
