Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Hi guys.How you all doin today? Thinking of you melly xx Wondered where shelley was, she one of the first to welcome me on this site, send her my love xx Shell u ok ? xx sheree
still up no choice on the night sssssshift everybody tucked up am on ma 10nth cup o tea and peein like a race horse he he think you guy an dolls are great glad to have some one to talk to have 8 weeks off night to do and this is my last of 4 ,yee afull 4 days off wooopeeee
Hey chickie Kate You're not an ex-carer (in a certain sense) cos ya still caring about all of us but yeah sorry, you are still a bit out of ya mind...logical really supporting Liverpool lol xxxx
Hi Teresa. dont fall off your perch hon, thats why you take lemonade with it!,Not been out much turning into a bit of a hermit, got a party to go to tomoz nite, friend from work, she live on a farm and her dog just had puppies, thats the main reason i wanna go, may come home with a little bundle, my mutt would b soo jealous.Trouble is my manager will b there and as im off sick dont no how that will go down!different if you off for a broken leg or something, hows u and your family? Dads much the same today, thinkin bout havin a party for him, wish his bloody legs would go back to normal size, goin out for lunch with his mac nurse on tues, hope i dont start blubbin in pub xx
Hi paul, bet you still b up late talkin to us lot wen on your day shifts he! he! .Hope you feelin ok xx
Hi melly, you fallen off your perch too? hows Daz? xx
Hi Kate, think we have met before, you find your keys yet?You got an admirer in your taxi driver? went to alot of trouble to get you a metal detector!! xx
hey chickie shezie How are you today hun? hows your dad doing hope he's had an okish day today bless him? Daz still tired and weak but we got the fortisip drinks today and he quite liked the banana ones but could only manage half a 200ml one but thats a good start i think? I took him to see his mum for an hour today just nice to get out for a little while. Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx P.S hows my hen doing today has she been good? lol
