Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
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Mel, did read your post, oh mate i wish i could make our Daz well, ooohhh, love you babe
never found the keys, went to see mums mate last night, now she is truly a lunatic
took the furbabies, left the house unlocked, cos i have no keys, we are going to doctors at 2, mums mate reckons I need prozac or something similar, no shit sherlock, just need DB, ooh nothing else Im still excelling myself in the madness stakes
i will let you know how the docs goes, brilliant........................ Apparantley I can have bereavement counselling..........but theres a 5 month waiting list??????????/ So im just gonna unravel on here.............................
hope your all doing ok today so glad you were all here last night to make our mellymoo smile.
kate, hope you got on ok at docs, no shame in needing a little pick you up mate to help you a bit, i have been on tablets since mum and dads passing, and i also went to counselling at the hospice but it wasnt for me, but lots of people find it very helpfull, so i hope they manage to fit you in sooner than 5 months, anythings worth a try aint it mate? speak soon hunni, love and hugs karen xxxxx
mama hen mel thinking of you and daz as always and sending tons of love and hugs to you both love chickie karen xxxxx
to all feathered ones thinking about you all and sending much love and hugs, karen xxxxxx
Hello, to you all on here.....MHM, still sending you and Daz and all the family big hugs along with my love....
Kate, oh, Kate, what will we do with you, sweetheart? (maybe the fur babies swallowed those keys?) hope your GP has helped, babe.......love you lots, big hugs too
Stalker Karen, love and hugs too, and also for all you feathered friends on here......
Oh vooaa, the taxi driver who brought me home when I lost the keys, has just dropped off a metal detector, how lovely is that, wow, so tomorrow i will be out metal detecting ha ha, maybe i will find treasure, I will share it all with my share buddies.............. also the docs went ok, my mate has just phoned to say ive left the spare car key in her car today
we have no spare, spares too true, what are we gonna do with me, i have lost the plot .................ha ha
Oh mate that picture never fails in giving me tummy ache, it just creases me up xxxxxxxxxxx
hey schmooster rooster of lurrve, you crease me up too, your pm cheered me up no end........fancy me being blown out ha ha ha..........Im hurt........yeah right xxxxxxxxxx
I have been speaking to Chickie Shell tonight on MSN she wants to send her love and hugs to you and Daz she is sorry to hear about your news and say she is holding your hand she apologised for not being able to get here herself to tell you but the computer is not working at the moment she wants you to know that she will be back as soon as she can she is thinking of you all the time and sends her love to you both
To all other chickies and roosters Shell said she is thinking of you all and sends her love to each and every one of you she misses you all and cant wait to come back here she misses talking to you all so big hugs from shell for each and everyone of you
hey loony kate........what are we gonna do wiv ya eh????/...............lol, now you have no spare spare keys
