Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
I weren't that privaleged just that he had membership to them and after a year or so I was put on his membership...am sure that pub is called the King's something, should remember really as it's the 1st pub he took me to when I spent my 1st weekend down there (says's a lot eh lol!!) once Michaela's better I might hold ya to that offer of a spare room, thanks...that'd be good xx
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it basicly mean general dogs body ha ha ha but realy watch cctv do the patrols do the cleaning deal with anything from domestics to murders report any distubances loud music thefts breakins everything realy that can and usually does in a night shift the weekends the worsk but I have been here for about three years now no most of the tennants so they useually calm down a bit if you talk to then right and they dont give me to much greif but it can get a bit hairy at times he he he
Shezie, what a lovely quote, going to have to love and leave ya now hun as Michaela up and uncomfortable (I hate this f*****g disease for all on here) with love and hugs T xxxxx
Sounds like fun paul !! i new wot a concierge was teresas the thick one Lol ,you wouldnt think so much could go on in a block of flats, guess it makes the nite go quicker xx
how about a joke to lighten the mood boy says to gran have you saw my tablets they say l.s.d on them"grannysays never mind the tablets have you saw the bloody dragons in the kitchen he he
Yup my bottles dry, best not to open a new tesco bargain! lovely bantering with you love to you and your family "A smiles a curve that sets alot of things straight" God dont i go on. sweet dreams . speak .later xx sheree
