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AM I THE ONLY CARER WHO NEVER SLEEPS!!!!!

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Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
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    Hi Paul
    Sorry you find yourself on here, seems you have been through a lot and that's without the main reason you are here. Like shezie asked, have you anyone (in the sense of understanding/caring of what you are going through? in the sense of caring I mean family and friends that are there for you? you sound very positive despite all you've been through...,with love and hugs teresa xx
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    Dear all
    I cant change wot ur going through,i have no words to make a difference,no answers or solutions to make things easier for you.But if it helps in any way,i want to say i care.Please no that even when youre lonely,youre not alone ill b here,supporting you with my thoughts,cheering you with all my strenght,praying for you with all my heart for whatever u need for as long as it takes................lean on my love xx sheree
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    ' Star ' Shezie...thats what you are... a star!! with all you are going through yourself and yet still there for others, I know I'm not alone when I say the sentiments you offer are returned back from many and if you ever need a shoulder you know where they are...

    Love Teresa xxxxx

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    Just call me miss quotation i have hundreds of them, i find they help most situations. it helps to write them and hopefully those that read them, watch this space there will b more, ive got a couple of glasses left in my bottle, oh thats my other way of coping ......Lol xx
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    Have just poured one more glass (though I have it with lemonade..woss eh?) shame I'm not still down in Wymondham else we could have had many a night with bottles of red eh? xx
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    Guess the lemonade makes it last longer, but i got my bargain from tescos, reduced from £7.50 so i bought 6, you get more money off that way , have i been had? sending you lots of hugs remember "hugs are universal, one size fits all" there i go again xx
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    ye I have my mum dad two sisters but they been through so much with my sister ten years now lynn passed with m.s she was second oldest to myself and I see lynns husband once a week for the last 6 years for a game golf and a little drink after he took it real bad he looked after her and still got married after finding out she was ill .I could not or his family get him to realy do anything for 2 years but I went to his house 1 day with 2 borowed set s golf clubs and told him he was going with me I never even played before but It worked and we have been very close ever since .but I cant realy talk to them because I no this is the same all over again and they seem to be ok just now my sis passed the day after my birthday and I couldnt face going to mums for years on that day because we all took flowers the day before and still do .I just cant bring myself to talk to them about certain things xxx paul
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    Anyway get your ass down here, ever go to the feathers? something i like bout that pub, hang on i like any pub, was in there the other nite . Dont no a Beverley Rose? she a friend of mine, she no everyone in wymondom xx
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    Don't know about it lasting longer just takes the edge off it and easier to drink, reduced from £7.50 to what? me and chickies karen and Kate were talking about this the other night.. I can get 2 carbernet sauvignon for £5 from local offy (phaps thats why I need the lemonade lol!!) or in tesco its between £4-5...sod that, it tastes the same don't it? loved the last quote and lots of hugs right back to you xx where do you get em from??
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    Meant to ask you...living in Norfolk are you a Canaries supporter?? 'let's be having you' lol!! xx
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