Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey my chickie strawberry shortcake Shell Thanks babe i'm on a high now may have to pull me down from the ceiling in a mo! lol I'm so happy, I'm so happy, I'm so happy and dappy and gay!!! lol Love ya loads love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxx
hey my chickie Lisa Have you got both this site open and photo bucket page too? Have you downloaded your photo's onto photo bucket already from your computer? Sorry to ask you silly questions babe just checking things to elimanante them for you Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxx
hee hee... i know i must be doing summat wrong... but yeah I got 2 tabs .. PB and here... and i put a pic in my PB album .. but it was just a funny pic i had seen on PB... can i not post them?.. I am so IT ignorant ..lol thanks MHM (((hugs))) glad you are happier today xx
hey chickie Lisa I'm not sure if you can post other pics from pb on here or not as never tried it? lol I'm not much use am i! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey chickie Strawberry shortcake Shell Photo bucket is a free to join web site where you can download photo's from your pc onto it then post them from there to here. Just go to www.photobucket.com and you will see what i mean. Ole rooster foggy told us about it and kirsty showed me how to post from there to here so i'm not really that intelligent! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie Dianne How you diddling babe? Hope your ok and that all's well? LOL you made me laugh that was funny but you not dense hun just hard to understand wot people talking about when you just logged on! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
