Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Hey gorgeous chickie Kate, are you trying to do photo's from Photo Bucket? If so you click on the picture then on pop up menu you choose' view image' then go to menu bar and choose 'edit' then 'select all' then 'edit again and select copy, then paste'...they were ole roosters instructions, no wonder they didn't work lol!! much love babe T xxxxxxxxxx
hey chickie Lisa thanks for your post babe hope you are ok? I just flippinf wrote a huge reply then flipping never sent!!! AAAARRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Makes me mad when then happens eh? love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi Kim Thanks sweet. Daz has his CAV chemo at 9.30am so will post later to say how it went. Thank you again for your kind thoughts Makes me feel less alone and boy do i feel alone today! I hope you have a nice day today and that all is well for you? Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxx
hey chickie Kate I hope our DB has a comfy day today and that she continues to improve? I also hope you are ok sweet and remember i'm here for you anytime ok? Loving my little sis soooooo much! I just wrote out a great big post and the flipping thing wouldn't send so i'm peed off now! lol Daz has his CAV chemo at 9.30am today so will post later how he gets on. You have a nice day and keep smiling and i'll keep fighting for us all! Much love and big hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Dear chickie Teresa I hope you and our baby chick Michaela are ok and that you both have a nice day today. You're both in my thoughts love and hugs MHM xxxxxxx
Dear chickie Helen thanks for all your support babe really means alot I am ringing the red cross today about hiring a wheelchaitr for Daz until we get one from the OT. If i have any questions about things to get for daz re the OT is it ok to pick your brains? Hope you have a nice day today love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxx
Dear rooster my big bro! Hope you are ok matey and that you have a nice day today? I have p/m you so hope you get it ok? You take care and catch up later love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxx
Dear chickie sue butty mophead madwoman! That still makes me smile! I hope you are ok sweet and that you have a nice day today Still holding your hand and thinking of you Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Dear hippy chickie Donna Hope you're comfy as possible and that you have a nice day today? Did you hear from Alison in the end? Was she ok as i was so worried about her? tell her i send my love and hope she feels s little better today love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Dear chickie Juls I hope you Richard and the kids are ok? Thank you for all your knd words and support. I hope you have a nice day today also hope to catch up very soon love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
dear chickie Karen thanks for everything sweet I hope you are well and that you have a good day at work today. I will post later so maybe catch up with you then You take care and keep smiling much love and big hugs your MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Dear chickie Deb hope you are ok sweet and that you have a nice day today? Will post again later so maybe catch up with you then love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
To any chickies i have not named for this i am sincerly sorry, just my brains a little addled at the mo! lol I hope you are all ok and that you and your loved ones have a nice day today. thank you all for your kind messages of comfort and support you are all little stars! Love and hugs your MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
MHM, of course you can pick my brains, (not that there are many, lol|) and want to wish you and Daz the very best for today's chemo and hope it does much, much better than the Docs are thinking.....
Teresa, that is such good news about Michaela....so far, so brilliant! let's hope the rest of her lymphoma responds as well!
Kate, how good is it that you posted, we were all so worried.....DB seems to be living up to her nickname?
Rooster Mick, hope that you haven't too huge a headache!
Kim, get well soon, dear chickie...
Sue Butty.....hope all is ok with you today....
Karen, hope you are battling ok with those sinuses still....and your clients too!
Juls......I hope we will have a chat as we usually do, lots of p/ms.....
Donna, I hope you are coping with your reduced mobility yet again, and am feeling for you.....it is just so unfair!
to all other chicks.....hello and hope you are coping ok.....
hey my chickies! Daz had his chemo did really well! So proud of him! he's sleeping again now and having a rest. Dr Shah wants daz bloods done every week now starting from next wednesday and we have to wait at the onco dept until the test results are back before we go home. I hope you and your loved ones are all well and that you're having a good day so far? I will post again later love and hugs all round love your MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
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