Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
We are ok (ish) Michaela is in remission with her bone marrow which is great news but still needs another 3 months of chemo and then radiotherapy as glands in neck haven't responded to treatment but slowly and surely we are getting there, though don't know how much longer I can handle the moods lol!! hope you are feeling well and had a good weekend Lots of lurve and hugs T xxxxxxxxxx
Dearest MHM Am glad that things went as well as could be for you and Daryll today and hope that you, Daley and Kirsty are as well as can be!! Will be thinking of you tomorrow (well later today) and hope that Daryll's chemo goes well, sending you all much love and hugs your MUS/chickie Teresa xxxxxxxxxx
The boys didn't bother with fathers day, and I was working on the eldest lads motorbike and got bitten or stung by something and it made my hand swell and caused a rash up my arm ! It's OK now tho'.
Belated Father's Day Wishes from a lady proud to know an Ole Rooster !! I'll be round in the week to kick your son's a***s, what was you stung by? hope you ok....much love Teresa xxxxxxx
thankyou all so much, have posted my thread ( hark at me mellymoo xxxx) laptop still needs attention so its really slow I mean zzzzzzzzzzsssssssssssllllllllllllllllooooooooooooowwwwwwwzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
BRB Have some photos, just trying to get them on here xxxxxxxx
we're thinking of you all with much love and hugs, try and get yourself some sleep and look after yourself..all our love Teresa and Michaela (((((hugs))))) xxxxxxxxxx
Dearest chickie Kate Haven't a clue hun about pasting the photo's, tried it like you did a while back but had no luck and made laptop really slow, best one to ask is ole (pissed) rooster or MHM (she managed it, bless her!!) & you're right it's makes a change for foggy to be p**d lol! we are day 10 of 15 day chemo, Michaelas's in remission with her bone marrow but needs the further 3 months of chemo then radiotherapy as her neck glands haven't responded to treatment...but hey enough about us babe (feel so selfish when I go on 1) given what you and others are going through, please give your mum a (((((hug))))) from us and all our love to you all XXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Belated Father's Day Wishes from a lady proud to know an Ole Rooster !! I'll be round in the week to kick your son's a***s, what was you stung by? hope you ok....much love Teresa xxxxxxx
