Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey chickie Fran Babe i'm so worried about you please let me know you are ok? I am staying logged on but if you have gone to sleep i hope you reply soon when you have time. I'm hoping you are getting some rest babe and that's why you haven't replied again but i laos hope you know i am here if you want me ok? Just let me know if i can do anything Much love and big hugs your MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey my chickie Sue butty Just to say thinking of you today sweet. Hope you have a lovely day with the kids and that it's not too painful for you Still holding your hand from afar Much love and big hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey MHM you not going to bed lol you have been busy havent you? well the flood is sorted after all and stefan got up to get a bath but guess what............... there ws no water i forgot turn it back on lol thank you for support today just drinking yet another cup of coffee might be back later hope you dont mind hope you and your lovely family have a great day too sending loads of love and hugs back to you chickie sue butty mophead madwoman lolxxxx
hey my chickie sue butty mophead madwoman! lol These names just get longer andlonger! lol No i haven't been to bed yet but i'm still standing eh? lol Just wanted to let you know i was thinking of you hun and that i'm still holding your hand Hope stefen managed to get his bath in the end! lol You take care and may catch you later if you pop back on Love you lots hun you take care and be strong Love and big hugs your MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
oh MHM you are naughty you must sleep lol i got a couple of hours then went and sat in the garden talking to the fish lol gulp gulp gulp i wonder if they knew what i ws saying lol he is in it now bless him just to think i have promised the kids a roast dinner today aswell i wonder how i can get out of that the other three are still asleep lazy buggers i bang about but they dont stir yet if i sleep and they make a nosie im there lol Do you remember talking to a young girl called kaytee about her boyfriend who was havig trouble with meds she needs some support right now Adam passed away bless them both they are so young i have tided up the towels moomy so its just the bird feathers sorry about the mess lol love and hugs chickie sue butty mophead madwoman!
hey my chickie sue butty mophead madwoman! Glad stefen managed to get his bath after all! lol Kids make you laugh don't they? Sleep like logs as teenagers yet when their toddlers and babaies you spend half the night awake with them! lol I will go on Kaytee's thread in a mo and offer my support so thanks for that babe. If you're cooking roast dinner i might pop round for some too then i'm feeling bit peckish now! lol I'm only little and won't eat alot i promise! lol You take care and keep smiling Much love and big hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxx
MHM yea kids do make you laugh and smile frustrating at times but we love them lol i cant wait to cook the roast the sun is shining and it feels quite warm like i need to be stuck in a damp kitchen cooking a roast but yes i will do it they need some normaility dont they? and you are welcolme will send it over with the bald piegeon carrier try and keep the cat away this time lol otherwise it will have to be a sparrow and they take longer lol i am going to the shops now so will speak to you later take care your self ok and thank you for last night/this morning thank you for making me smile hope you have a good day hope Daz had a good night sleep speak to you later love and hugs chickie sue butty mophead madwoman!
bye for now my chickie sue butty mophead madwowan! Maybe's catch up with you later then you can tell me how your day went Looking forward to me roast! lol Love and big ((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))) to you today tomorrow and always MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
You all had a busy night again, lots of feathers.......? Was that a carrier pigeon or not? cos if it was I didn't find any message.....but have cleared up the feathers, nearly enough to make a cushion, lol!
