Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
hey chickie Debbie You are doing it right babe I am getting what you write! It can be a bit confusing first of all but you will soon get the hang of it just don't give up ok! Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey chickie Kate have no idea at all how to sort your laptop out babe Guess it will have to go to the dr's again! lol Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Dear rooster of lurve Sleep well mate Hope to catch you again soon Much love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey my chickie Debbie! I'm still here too oddly enough! lol Have just replied to your P/M babe Hope it helps a little? Are you still feeling low babe or do you feel a little better now? I do understand what you are going through as we have the same worries babe, but i know iv'e said this loads of times already i am here for you and would like to help you too. Love and hugs MHM xxxxxxx
hey chickie Kate You still a fiddling? lol Kirsty is here with Beavis again Their watching ghosty things on tv!! lol On the paranormal channel! Get back to your fiddling! I'm gonna start calling you fiddling Kate! LOL!!! Daz always says i fiddle with things especially when i don't know what i'm doing! But i like to feel useful whats wrong with that eh? lol If anything goes wrong with things he always says to me " you been fiddling with it again"! Flipping cheek!! LOL love and hugs MHM xxxxxxxxxxx
