Hello,
I guess I’m writing here as I don’t really know where else I can talk to people who understand.
My mum has just been diagnosed with Invasive Carcinoma (No Special Type) Grade 3, ER negative, PR negative, HER2 positive. She’s 53 and my best friend. I just cannot believe this is happening to us and I just feel so angry. Because why us? And then I think again and think why any of us? Life is so cruel.
There is never a ‘right time’ to be diagnosed with cancer. Although I feel like this has come at the worst possible time for my family. I’m 30 and I’ve just had my first child only 4 weeks ago. My little baby girl. I had the whole years maternity leave planned out - Days out with my little girl and my mum. It’s now turned into a nightmare that is going to be full of hospital treatments and chemo. How can I have the most amazing high happy moment of my life and then only 23 days later receive the worst news of my whole life?
I can’t imagine life without my mum. Every time I even think about it my heart hurts. Trying to stay strong for her and my family but it just feels impossible at the moment.
I guess this is just a cry for help. I don’t know what to do - trying to stay positive but I just can’t.
