My mum was recently diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer which has spread and is currently getting sicker by the day. I have been in the hospital almost everyday but I'm exhausted and mentally struggling but then struck with guilt over leaving her when I need to.
Im finding it increasingly difficult to watch her deteriorate day in day out. She hasn't wanted to find out how long she has left and is currently on no treatment due to the fact she is so unwell with infections, blood clots and fluid in lungs and heart.
I feel anxious, scared, depressed, exhausted and feel sick everyday and I'm not sleeping but mum is going through more than myself so I feel selfish.
I don't know how to cope with it all.
