Hello
A bit of background - in October 2025, we found out my husband had bowel cancer after a colonoscopy following the standard screening. November he had an operation to remove the cancer and he started chemo in January, finished in April after some delays due to getting colitis and being very poorly.
We have two children - 8 & 10 years old.
since chemo ended, my husband feels physically and mentally good. He’s back to work, trying to build himself back and up and is just looking forward to getting his life back.
But I am struggling and I don’t know how to explain it. I feel lost, exhausted and just don’t know how to revert back to who I was in October before this happened.
I have put everything into caring for him, keeping life normally for the kids, keeping the house running and I had only just started a new job when this happened.
I honestly don’t know how I’m just suppose to pick up my life again. And I feel like it logically makes no sense, my friends and family keep telling me to be positive and to move on with my life but I feel like I’ve lost a bit of who I used to be.
I guess I’m just looking for someone else who feels, or has felt this way. For someone to tell me this is normal and reasonable without the judgement and expectation that everyone in my life seems to have of me.
of course I am delighted this is over (although no CT scan for another 6 months so we don’t actually even know for sure that it is over) but I feel like everyone expects me to be and feel one way and I can’t seem to live up to that
can anyone relate? Or am I mad
