My husband has just been diagnosed with advanced esophageal cancer. Hoping for a PET-CT scan next week to determine what chemo he will be on. He’s in a lot of pain and I hate seeing him like that. He’s losing weight as struggling to eat.
I am feeling so guilty because I’m really, really struggling to come to terms with what’s going on.
I hate seeing him in pain.
I hate the fact that already our life has changed so much.
I hate the fact that our future dreams are unlikely to happen.
I hate that we will not grow old together.
I don’t want him or our boys to see me so upset so I’m keeping it to myself although I do have a close network of a few friends who are being amazing.
I’ve read some of the pages on the site and they have been useful.
I’m not sure of the point of this post but guess I want to know are my feelings normal and what can I do to support my husband and be strong for him?
