Hi, I am struggling.
In 2019 I lost my uncle to lung and larynx cancer. In 2021 I lost my dad VERY suddenly to kidney cancer which spread.. well everywhere. The biggest loss to my life. Now I am losing my nana to lung cancer which has spread to her bones. She wants to ‘go’ because she can’t cope with the pain anymore, I cant get down to see her as she lives 250 miles away and I can’t drive. I can’t bear the anticipatory grief - it’s bringing back all the fresh feelings again.
