Struggling to come to terms with my dads cancer

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Hello there, sorry it didn’t let me reply properly.

I'm so sorry to hear this. I don’t know what else to say other than it’s awful. It feels so cruel.
My dad is the fittest healthiest person, runs, cycles swims every day. He went to the doctors 5 weeks ago with an upset stomach, he was sent to A&E and he’s not left hospital. He’s been diagnosed with bile duct cancer and is terminal. 
My dad is my absolute world, we speak every day and life without him is unimaginable. I don’t know how I am going to navigate it. 
I am hear if I can help or be there for you. 

Thank you so much. And likewise to you. I’m very sorry to hear about your dad. The pain is unbearable isn’t it. I try to act normal when I visit but a lot of the time fighting back the tears when he’s struggling to breathe. Everyone says enjoy the time you have but in a way it feels like I’m mourning already. People just don’t understand…

It really is unbearable. I’m under no illusion that my dad would be here forever but this is too soon. I tried to keep it together when I’m with him but I have just laid there and sobbed with him too. 
I think we have to remind ourselves, that it’s ok to not be ok. This is a traumatic experience for our family member and also us. 
I’m trying to help with the practical things because those I can control. Washing/walking his dog/communicating with his friends and family. 
I don’t think any of this will be easy, I’m not expecting it to be. I do want to be there in any way I can and know how loved he is. 

Lots of love to you x