hi everyone
posted about a week ago about my husbands new treatment regime of chemotherapy tablets
so far its going ok with no issues ...he is on his 6th week of chemo tablets and now its effects are more noticeable..
hes been feeling very tired and now hes suffering with sickness and vomiting ....he was told that this would probably happen and was given pills to take when it started ...its hard to watch him suffer like this and i know its to help him cope ..i think this when the hard work for me begins ...im not complaining about it though ...i think its hard on anyone who cares for a cancer sufferer as well ...knowing you can only do so much for them and letting the medication do its work ..i will say though that going up and down stairs many times a day at the moment is going to get me fitter ..well i hope so lol
he keeps saying sorry and of course he is the worst pessimist i know so i think part of the problem is him dealing with the feeling of helplessness as well.as knowing that the cancer is not going away but being held at bay for now ....i can only be there when he needs me and luckily my kids have been there when i needed them ...its a vicious circle at the moment ..medication ..sickness ..despair and acceptance ......
theres no manual for dealing with cancer for either sufferers or carers ..pretty much day to day and see how it goes i think..
i try to be positive ..sometimes its easy and most days its not ....
ive come to terms with the idea that he wont be here forever ..i just dont want to deal with it ..if that makes sense ...
ive had my own health issues to cope with and so far its been ok....but if one more doctor asks me am i under any stress that could explain my issues i will probably forget im supposed to be a lady!!!
im trying to deal with it all in a way that doesnt make him and me feel bad and i can only deal with what happens day to day ..
.take care everyone
sarah x
Yes, gotta love the GP from time to time. Mind you for me my new manager at work was probably worse - blaming just about everything that happened to me on my wife's cancer rather than anything that was happening at work - including the person who ended up pushing me out of work - mind you it was only a year before i would have retired so could easily have been worse still.
I recognize how difficult it can be both when Janice and I are in sync or out of sync - not sure which can be the most challenging but at the end of the day - well tomorrow is another day and always good if we can close the box on what happened yesterday.
<<hugs>>
Steve
