Hi,
The last 8 months my mom has been having chemo for her breast cancer and it’s been really tough. I’ve been feeling really down and anxious most of the time.
I almost feel guilty when i’m out knowing that she’s at home with dad feeling ill. Even though she would tell me i’m being ridiculous! It’s been really hard seeing her go through this and also see my dad go through it all as well (he works from home) so he is with her 24/7.
I’ve also got an older autistic brother who has been quite difficult throughout the months but he has started to understand it more after i’ve made a few storyboards for him.
I do have people to talk to but I feel like I’m either overthinking it or I don’t what to bother people. I haven’t been eating as much and I just don’t feel like myself anymore. I don’t have the energy to do what i normally enjoy and when I’m with my friends it almost doesn’t feel right or I feel drained.
My Mom is coming towards the end of her chemo (then another op and radiotherapy) and I think because I’ve been bottling all these feelings, i feel like i could burst but I’m trying to keep it together for her.
I just wanted to get this all out in some way and if anyone would have any advice.
Hi W2509 welcome to the forum. You sound like a lovely caring and big hearted person. It's hard with all the emotions going round and round in your head and done times you feel fit to scream at the world. You are trying to care and think about everyone else but like many, forgetting about you and your health and needs. It's OK to look after them as well, in fact it's vital. Reading your post I feel that you need someone to talk to, to express how you feeling and to listen and hear that. I'm wondering if you felt able to that you give the Macmillan Line a call and have a chat with someone there 
. . They may also know of local services that you could tap into for you to support you through what is actruly difficult time. 08088080000. Sending some huge big hugs your way for now.
gail
