Not sure what i want from this..but anyway, My dad is on end of life care and just in the last few days his health is deteriating rapidly..hardly eating anything and struggling to dress himself..my mum is speaking with one of the m nurses tommorrow..but I know that it can't be long now. I'm not the best at expressing my feelings but today we had a family dinner..he wasn't at the table as he isn't eating...after an emotional day then preparing when all finally sat down a wave of emotion came over me realising it wasn't the same without him sat there..so excused myself whilst I went upstairs and broke down...my mum needs my strength but I'm worried ill fall to pieces when she needs me the most..I need to release the emotions without it damaging my strength..think I i just need to put this out there but there isn't really an answer..its all so sad but that's life I guess!
Hi Andyct
Sorry to read this though of course your story is not at all uncommon. The being strong bit is easy to write but when it comes to doing then it can be something else. Sometimes it can help me to acknowledge the pain but with a kind of detachment almost as if it were happening to someone else.
For me it took a living with less stress course to give me the tools I needed, but somehow just knowing there is someone out there who gets it can be helpful.
<<hugs>>
Steve
