Hi,
I'm 25 & my mum was diagnosed with stage 4 metastatic bowel cancer back in April this year. Since then I've struggled with a horrible all consuming anger; not directed towards my mum, but directed at everyone else outside of our family. I think it's a juggling act of feeling resentment that I may lose my mum at a young age, and general anger at the helplessness of the situation. Currently I struggle to feel happy for anyone else right now because some bitter part of my brain is so jealous & resentful of the fact that my mum is suffering & they get to carry on with their life, & I hate that I can't feel empathy right now because this isn't who I am (or who I thought I was).
Has anyone else experienced this & if so did it get better & how did you cope?
Hi there. Firstly I want to say I'm so sorry to hear about your mum's diagnosis. I also relate to how you feel. I think it is normal. I lost my dad two weeks ago to cancer and he was only 59. Currently I feel really bitter if anyone mentions to me anything about family or friends who are sick and over the age of 70. I hate feeling like this. I'm always a sympathetic person but all I feel is rage xx
Hey,
I am so sorry to hear about both of your parents and what you are going through.
I’m 24 and going through exactly the same thing with my mum who was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer in September. I can’t tell you how much I relate to the above, I am so angry and resentful and hate so much that she is having to go through this. As much as I am surrounded by amazing friends, no one understands it at all, at our age this just doesn’t happen. I am so angry that everyone continues to live their life as normal whilst I am going through the hardest experience of my life.
People are trying to relate to the situation with stories of their neighbour or grandparent and I just want to scream because they have no idea what it is like when it is your parent.
I am usually the supportive friend who people go to when they need advice but all I see now is petty problems and feel like I am losing the understanding characteristic that makes me me.
Please feel free to reach out if you need a chat, it’s so important to know you’re not alone x
Hi, I'm so sorry for your terrible news, it's the most devastating news, I feel the same, yesterday we were told mum has cancer in her rib and it's not curable, she had cancer two years ago and had treatment and was cancer free.
Now this news, I'm so angry and upset, we don't how long we have with her but I'm hoping we can have some kind of treatment to prolong her life, I feel numb and lost. We are going to take one day at a time and try and come to terms with horrible disease.
Just coming on here will help and talking about how you feel , we are all here to help xx
My heart goes out to you & you’re family right now ️ it’s not the kind of news I would wish on anyone however it’s a relief to know it isn’t just us if that makes sense..
The same goes to you, if you ever need to just talk to stuff out feel free to message & thank you so much for helping me feel less alone. I hope I’m some way it helps to know that we’re in this together & hope you’re doing well ️
I’m so sorry to hear that, if you ever need to reach out feel free to drop me a message & I wish your mum & your family all the best in the world ️
Believe me when I say whatever happens you will get through this ️ here if you need me & hope you’re all doing well despite the horrible news ️
Thank you for replying, I'm so glad of this forum because we are all going through the same thing, it's so horrible, hopefully we will get a hospital appointment and discuss what we can do, the through of losing her is heartbreaking but I need to be strong for her and my brother who has leaning disabilities.
I'm here anytime to chat or vent, thinking of you and your mum ️
Hey. I am so glad I found this forum and your message. This is exactly how I feel. I am 28 and my dad has stage 4 advanced prostate cancer. I'm really struggling with a range of conflicting emotions, including anger. Anger at the world and the feeling of unjustness and that time has been taken away. Please know you aren't alone xxx
So sorry you’re having to go through this, there are no words for how horrible it is and how much it turns your world upside down. Very proud of you for being there for your family, it is all you can do. However remember you cannot pour from an empty glass and make sure you are also looking after you ️ always here for anyone if they need a rant.
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