I wanted to write this post as i Hope It can help someone. Someone whos in a difficult or darker place. Because that was me until yesturday.
My dad was diaagnosed with stage 3 colon cáncer 8 months ago and had to have an emergency operation to have the tumors removed. He was in intensive care for 2 weeks and recovery was challenging. But he stayed positive. He would wake Up in hospital everyday and just try and Focus on the little good things of the day. Then when we found out after 10 rounds of chemo that his colon was cáncer free we were over the Moon.
Sadly we also discovered that It had already moved its way to his liver. The oncologist said his liver is full of tumours and unfortunatley they he Will never be free of his cáncer. But hopefully they can some how control It for the rest of his Life. From this conversation It was hard to see light. My dad then began his new chemo where there was no end date to It. For me as his daughter I have struggled with dealing with the whole process. Ive felt scared, lonely, anxious, dark, depressed,angry. I couldnt accept the fact that maybe my dad wouldnt be here to see me grow Up and have kids of my own, or to walk me down the isle. But my dad never Lost his Hope. His attitude everyday was to keep himself busy with his hobbies and usual deeds. He tried so hard to continúe his Life as normal as possible and Focus on positive thoughts. We took It on turns to go to chemo with him and stay there (sometimes for 8hrs) watching films together and turning the treatment into a more positive experience. I cant express how positive and hopeful and calm he has been from the day he was diaagnosed. And that has been his miracle. Yesturday we found out the chemo he has been trialing has not only controlled the cáncer from spreading out of his liver but has shrunk the cáncer cells by 50%. In 6 months he could be cáncer free. Which is a phrase we thought we would never hear.
My dad has manifested Positivity in this incredibly dark time and It has benefited him. Coming from someone Who was diaagnosed last year with severe depression, to having stage 3 cáncer then a worse diagnosis. To seeing that light at the end of a dark tunnel.
I know this isnt the case for everyone, but i just wanted to let any scared daughters, sons, sisters, anyone know that you are not Alone. It is a scary place to be, but stay positive and manifest positive outcomes, because It just may work. What is there to loose.
Dont loose hope, stay positive and optimistic. Because thats all we have.
I send anyone reading this a Hug. You are not Alone. Stay hopeful.
