My father was diagnosed in late October as having acute myeloid leukaemia. During November he had 4 weeks of intensive chemo but on the 10th December was told there was nothing more they could do and he had maybe 2 months left. He's still with us but only just. He is a shadow of his former self both physically (probably only weighs around 7.5 stone) and mentally. I am left feeling completely helpless. He lives over 4 hours drive away and gets more anguished when I or my sisters go to visit as he still thinks he should be looking after us (he is 79 and we are in our late 40s early 50s) I dont know what to do for the best. Yesterday he had the paramedics out to him as he had a case of rigors and was given morphine. Does thus mean we are nearing the end of his suffering? Why does he have to suffer so much? And when will it be over for him? I dont want him to go but I hate seeing him like this.
Hi PJD315
Sorry to hear about your dad as I can see how much you care for him and indeed how much he cares for you. It is really hard to watch someone we love go through this.
It is very hard even for the doctors who are treating him to know when the end will actually be and your being torn between wanting the suffering to end but not wanting to lose your dad are also totally common.
<<hugs>>
Steve
