drifting apart when I can't seem to help

FormerMember
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My wife was diagnosed with bowel cancer and ovarian cancer and they removed her womb and part of her colon. Lived with stoma and had chemo till an all clear. Then at the start of last year, scan showed peritoneal metastases and had a massive operation that again seemed successful. Chemo and regular scans have shown anther lump in her abdomen that's neither growing nor shrinking but those on her lungs have gone. They're keeping an eye on that one with three monthly scans. She's scared and unhappy and I can't seem to help or feel what she thinks I should. So we're getting further apart where I'm afraid to speak, when she needs me most. 

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    FormerMember

    Hi, so sorry to hear all that your're both going through. My hubby has been on the C journey for 18 months now, and can't offer you any advice except to say that he is different, not the same man at all.  I  understand the feeling youre further apart, i do too, before all this happened we were so close, now i feel like i dont even know him, and he doesn't notice if i'm there or not. Its very lonely. But we can only imagine what theyre feeling inside and i think they just go into survival mode, and set themselves apart unconsciously as they just have to cope that way. Of course, we know they need us and i know my hubby would probobly give up if it were'nt for me, so just do whatever she needs, be whoever she needs, as you already are, and God willing she will come thru this, and you'll see your wonderful brave wife return to you.

    I know you realise all of this, but hopefully it just helps that you're not alone feeling like this.

    xx