Dads death

Hello , I'm sorry to hear about your Dad and the decision you had to make that's affecting you so strongly at this time. You mention it being a year ago and sometimes anniversaries of events can bring painful memories flooding back. When my Dad died in hospital I was caring for my Mum at home when we got the call, I cant fully imagine what it was like for you having to make that decision, but it would have had the support of the medical team around your Dad but had to be a next of kin decision, but if no next of kin I image in the same decision would have been made. 

I do wonder if I should suggest a different online community group to you that might identify what you are going through more easily, the bereaved friends and family group, and if the information pages coping with bereavement  might be of help to you, it does mention delayed bereavement when people get stuck in one of the stages of bereavement. A call to the Macmillan support line (0808 808 0000 open 8am to 8pm) might be a way forward for you they may have other suggestions for coping, which may include talking to your GP.  When my Mum passed away I began to feel ill and have anxiety symptoms and went to see my GP who arranged counselling, by the time they got in touch I had my own cancer diagnosis to deal with so I wish you every luck with your struggle.

Best wishes