Dad has laryngeal cancer

Hi and welcome to the community though sorry to hear about your dad. 

It might help to know a bit more about what he might be going through if you looked at our pages here. /my wife's cancer is very different but for her chemotherapy caused some side effects but it was nowhere near as bad as we had feared. The good news for her though was the second treatment rendered her cancer stable.

Given the new job too I am not surprised your emotions are more challenged than for some, it is important to know that there is no right answer.

Hope you get the pet scan results soon and hope for good news.

<<hugs>>

Steve

Hi Steve

Thank you for your kind words. It’s good to know that your wife had a good outcome with Chemo and that it wasn’t as bad as you expected. One fear for me is that he is not strong enough to cope with both Chemotherapy and Radiotherapy at the same time, but maybe I should have more faith. 

Our relationship is certainly challenging... however inside I’m still that little girl that puts him on a pedestal and hopes to make him proud. Some of his choices have hurt me very deeply but he is still my dad and I love him very much. It sounds very morbid but some part of me can not help but fear that this is a start to the journey of the end of us... that he will not survive this and all will be lost.

I guess it’s natural to have these fears and I will try not to let it consume me. The new job certainly complicates things as it’s a complete change and a time when I need to be at my best but don’t know how to be. I do know that he is proud of me and that will keep me working to not fall apart and make a mess of if all. 

I also have a four year old that doesn’t know him. I desperately want to protect my child from all of this but also can’t help but feel that he has the right to know his grandson.

So many conflicting emotions! ...