Esophagus cancer

Hi,

My Mum was diagnosed with the same about 6/7 weeks ago and I completely relate to how you are feeling, it is really really tough. Kind of feels like your world is turned upside down and that you’re living in Groundhog Day!

I have been lingering in this forum on and off since Mum was diagnosed and you are the first person I have spoken to because it struck a chord with me. I want to say it gets easier but I’m not at that point so can’t say that with any confidence. What I will say is that the day to day going to work, doing the food shopping etc becomes less hard and it gives you a sense of being grounded and gives some control.

I feel exactly the same about trying to stay strong for my Mum, it’s tough. And will become quite emotionally draining. I am exhausted a lot of the time. My main advice is to talk and talk and talk. I’m certainly not the poster boy for this because at times I am very closed off but just knowing I can speak to my best friend or partner in those times of complete devastation helps. And the anger... well I haven’t found a solution for that yet, it kind of peaks and troughs, I’m still learning to cope with it but again, getting it out in some way is a good thing. At the moment I spend a lot of time in the garden or in the countryside, something about being outside helps.

I’m not sure if any of what I’ve said is helpful and I’m sorry if it isn’t. I am still very much in the anger, fear, devastated stage but I wanted you to know that I hear you and know how you’re feeling.

Ryan

Hi Ryan

I really appreciate you messaging me. It makes me feel slightly more "normal" about the way I'm feeling.

I have such a great family and friends around me and even though my brother and sister are going through exactly the same thing I feel very alone, through no fault of theres or through lack of trying to support each other.

My mum is due to have a scan on tuesday to check the severity and if its anywhere else.. I cant wait for the day to come just to know what's going on but at the same time I'm dreading it. 

How is your mum coping and feeling?

Again thank you for messaging me.

Laura