Having a bad day

Hi ht77,

What's the op?  I would think your reactions are perfectly normal. Scary but good that something is being done.

Removing the tumour and lymph nodes , enough healthy bowel to complete the op but won't know until they get in there x still all quite new but everyone has been fab . 

Well good luck. I hope it all goes well.  Certainly sounds positive.

Mum wasn't too bad when I got to hers.  My brother actually stayed until 5pm! Wonders will never cease...  Mum asked if we could all come earlier in the mornings because that's her worst time emotionally.  I've put something on our WhatsApp chat and they've all read it but no one has replied.  Waste of time!

Felt so bad leaving her and cried walking home.  I don't want to cry anymore.

Oh hooray he stayed.  Am sure your mum knows you love her.

Ht77 good luck with the op.  

Hugs to all. Jx

GP has signed me off for 7 days, given me tablets and a number for counselling.  The tablets could take 4 - 6 weeks to work and there's a long waiting list for the counselling. Good job there's some chocolate left over from Halloween...

What do the tablets do?

Choc hooray!

My sister asked for anti depressants because of the situation here with mum and dad.  Gp said no as they are addictive. 

No counselling offered.

Mum had enough energy to shower today.

Jx

They're anti depressants.  GP told me all about the side effects so I'm still not sure if I'm going to take them or not.  I don't like taking tablets. 

I'e been eating mini curlywurlys whilst watching more episodes of Grey's Anatomy.

Actually feel a tiny bit better knowing that I haven't got to go to work for a week.

I can get counselling through work so I'm going to see if that comes through sooner.

That's good about your mum.  My sister is with my mum today.  She says she ok and has managed to have a wash.

Hi Guys,

Well, the doctor came at 12.30ish & the ambulance transport at 6.45pm! Bloods were taken around 8pm in the Medical Decisions Unit, & we finally saw the Registrar at 1 this morning!!! It was the same lovely man who was in A&E when this all started. They're concerned because his blood pressure drops so much when he stands. He didn't say anything about an infection so I'm presuming that's not an issue. He told me before I left that Alan may have to have a brain scan to see if it's now affected.

I finally got home after 2 this morning!! Had to get taxi as had gone in ambulance with Alan. £23 later!!! Alan texted this morning to say not to worry about visiting him today. He knows how tired I was yesterday. I'm taking him up on that!! My preferred watching today will be How to Train Your Dragon 1 AND 2!! Did you know that the animator based Toothless on a cat?? No wonder it seemed so familiar!! One of mine likes to watch TV, she was watching Too Cute on Animal Planet with me yesterday :-) 

Elenium, the support line for Macmillan are really lovely. The first time I called I just cried for an hour!  Look online and see if your local hospice has phone support. I find it much easier to speak freely on the phone. 

I also have clinical depression & I just think of my tablets as keeping the chemicals in my brain working properly, well as properly as my brain will ever be lol.

When I got back last night I could hear music from the living room. It took me a minute to remember I'd put Classic FM on for the cats as the fireworks were scaring them so much!! When I volunteered at the Rescue I got them from we found it really helped because  against the background music the firework bangs don't seem so sudden. Classic FMs good because the presenters there through the night speak softly, & they don't play "violent" music. I often listen at night in bed as it feels relaxing.

I hope everyone has a better day today,

Big Hugs

Sue xx

Hi Sue,

At least Alan is in the right place and you can get some rest.  

I've got both my dogs with me.  One at my feet and one on my lap.  They help.  One of them is terrified of fireworks - I'll have to try classic fm for her.

i'm a bit worried about the side effects of the tablets and how long they take to work.  I'm taking lavender oil capsules which do seem to be helping a bit and at least I don't get any side effects with them.  I'll think about it.

Do you get any side effects from your tablets?