Having a bad day

I went to work to in the hope it would take my mind off everything, even though I felt sick all the way in.  Ended up coming home early as I was so miserable and got upset.  One of the bosses sent me home and told me to take a few days.  My boss rang me while I was on the train and I started crying. I couldn't talk to him and people were looking at me.  As if I didn't feel shit enough.  Thankfully no-one was home when I got in becuase I just wanted to be on my own.  I need to pull myself together as I've got to go to mum's later because my brother can't stay any later than 4...  Can't go round too early because she'll know something's up. Really struggling today.  Don't know how mum is because my brother has stopped posting on our whatsapp group since I told him how I was feeling.  I spoke to her briefly this morning and she was ok then so hopefully still ok now.  It's all crap!  I know there are others worse off but not coping at all today.  

Big Hugs Elenium xxx

Thanks shopgood.  Hope things are better for you today.

It was. Had to get doctor out. He thinks Alan's got an infection of some kind. We're waiting for ambulance transport to the hospital & the Medical Decisions Unit.

I hope you don't have to wait too long and they get it sorted quickly. X

Hiya Hun x I'm a mess in work too thought it would take my mind off things but I'm just being vile and the slightest thing makes me cry feeling a bit more positive with the op on its way but I thought I would feel normal again but I've constantly got a knot in my stomach. Venting on here is a godsend I do kinda feel a bit better but this feeling of .. don't know how to describe it is always there x it's lovely to be on here with so many people with a virtual hug and sometimes it's easier to talk to people without a face if that's that makes sense. 

Hiya, it makes perfect sense. I realised that sometimes I'm aware that I'm causing upset in a friend when I talk about it. And that is the last thing I want to do. Sometimes people you know are too close. 

Thinking of you shopgood.  Hope hospital help. Let us know.

Elenium. Is 4pm the witching hour for your brother?  Hope when you see her your Mum is OK.  Give her a hug if bones don't hurt? Good your boss sympathetic. 

Bloody wheelchair faulty so it goes back tomorrow. 

Mum weak all day today. Don't understand this vile disease.

Cat hates me.

Jx

Op on the 17th relieved and freaking out at the same time x

Yes, 4pm is the witching hour - for both my brothers.  Does my head in!  I'm going to make an appointment to see GP tomorrow.  See what she says.  My work have been brilliant.  Only started there in February.  

Hope the wheelchair gets sorted and your mum has a better day tomorrow.

It's all crap, isn't it?  

I'm sure the cat doesn't hate you.  Might just be trying to decide whether to bite you again, maybe you tasted good...