Having a bad day

Hi Michelley, 

I can't believe it's been 8 weeks. For me on some days it seems like such a long time ago and others it's feels like yesterday.

I found the sorting out very hard. I would do a bit and then have to leave.  It took me a long time to get it all done. I have kept a lot of mum's things. I like to have them around me.

That's nice that you'll have the ring and you'll be able to wear it all the time  I have mum's wedding ring. I wear it every day.

Sending you a big hug  

Xxx

Dad wanted things sorted I have kept loads of moms things we got her ashes back and she is now at home . It feels so surreal she once told me just think that I’m on holiday . Well now I want her to come home ! And it’s not going to happen . It’s the year of the firsts we had our wedding anniversary the first time in 40 years she as not sent me a card that was hard . I don’t think I will ever be the same again this feeling is like nothing I have ever felt before . 

It's horrible, I know. I miss mum every day. It does get easier but it's still shit. I still pick up the phone to text her at times. 

When I know I'm going to have a tough day I wear her favourite perfume. It helps. 

Hugs. Xxx

I have been wearing her perfume as well and I have a treasure box with the special things in  x. 

It's  good to have that.

X

Found out tonight that my husband's aunt (we are pretty close) has aggressive lung and liver cancer. Also found out a couple of days ago that a friend of mine has suspected ovarian cancer.

I fucking hate cancer! 

Oh Elenium I’m so sorry for you having to go through all this again your poor aunt what stage is she at ! And your friend must be so scared . But you will be there to support them . Yes I hate cancer As well life is so shit for some people . My husband came home from work early yesterday some one he works with had collapsed and died he was 42 . You take care I’m here when u need me x

Thanks Michelley.

Friend has now had it confirmed that she's got bowl cancer. 

She's a year younger than me. So bloody scary. 

How are you? 

I’m doing ok still sad about mom and don’t think life will ever be the same it’s like a dream what I went through . My friend also was diagnosed with bowel cancer . She as had it taken away and a colostomy bag fitted which she is having reversed in Oct this year and she is doing great  so hopefully your friend will be the same . X

I miss mum all the time. My nephew got married recently and spoke about her not being there. He struggled to get the words out and broke down at one point. It's been 2 years and still feels recent.

My friend has had surgery but that's all I know. I don't want to bother her but hoping she'll let me know how she is. It's a very difficult time. 

Xx