Having a bad day

Cookie Monster, the chemo sickness can be bad. Saw it with mum. You are not alone and you have clearly been tested in life, early death of yr parents and yr partner walking out. Well, i welcome you. Im summising you know there might be another group on here who are going through similar to you. This community have helped me tread the steps through horror, grief and light. May you feel the warmth too x

I came on here this morning as I am struggling today. Everything is too much and I keep crying. Miss mum so much. Really need her support and advice. My first port of call when I feel like this is here, so I can talk to my virtual family. Reading your posts this morning has helped. You are all so strong and you inspire me.

Love to all.

X.

Sending you a big hug MM x

Love to you Maisiemai.

Keep going Elenium, such sadness does creep up on us all.

big hug Xxxxx

Got a message from someone who'd only just heard about mum.  Had to go and hide in the toilet. Wasn't expecting it.

Awful when that happens 

I was in the restaurant just before Christmas and a lady who used to come to Jill and my restaurant came over to say how lovely it was to see me and asked how Jill was !!!? 

I went cold but it keeps happening it’s such a strange feeling 

Hope your all ok x 

hello,

it’s a shock, I know, when it drops on you out of the blue.

take care all xxx

Hello all.

I'm still reading posts.

Anniversary approaches.  Bought a candle to burn on the day.  Dad has to dialyse that day.

I feel angry a lot. It feels like if I picked up some china and smashed it I'd feel better. (Only I'd have to clear it up).

Much love to all.

Jx

It's horrible Jenny. My mum's is the day after yours I think.  I've booked the day off work. Certainly can't be there with KH boss.  I'm sorry you feel so angry Jenny.  Perhaps you should just smash something.  I didn't smash things but I did do a lot (and I mean a lot) of shouting and screaming.

There was a team breakfast this morning. I didn't go.  I'm still not great in social situations.  I sometimes feel trapped and I just have to leave.  It's OK with friends because they understand but I can't explain it to colleagues.  They probably just think I'm a miserable old cow...  Don't really care, to be honest.

Hugs to all.

X