Having a bad day

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Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out.  I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down.  Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her.  My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later.  I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better.  My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help.  She had a major strop.  I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard.  I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up.  Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it.  But I feel even worse now.  I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else.  I just keep crying and feel so very very sad. 

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    A tattoo? Unless you already have one/some? 

    Xxx

  • I have got some things planned that involve heights.  Someone has arranged for me to fly a plane and I'm going to walk up to the top of Monument in London.  I'd love to to the car thing Bobles but I don't think I could afford it.  I did think about a tattoo after mum died - I thought I could get a small owl (she loved owls) - but then thought that she would be absolutely horrified as she really didn't like tattoos.  It's not really me either.

    Bobles I'm sorry that it's so hard with your MIL.  We just don't need it now after everything else.  My MIL is responding to treatment but still can't go home as she can't walk.  She'll have to have carers when she does eventually go home.

    I'm trying to focus on the good but sometimes the bad overwhelms me.

    Hugs to all.

    X

    Elenium

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    hot tub under the stars; have your horoscope done, fab place in upper st martins lane; a silent retreat; spin a clay thing to make a vase/bowl: print these pages into a little book, you started this precious space for us all; get a big canvas and just paint whatever you feel like until its covered; play air hockey on brighton pier with us!; go to an open air film; open top bus tour of York; brocante; keep a diary for a year and each day and write I am fabulous because today I....: do archery: xxx

  • Keep going Elenium, your are doing brilliantly. We all get overwhelmed at times Elenium, you aren't on your own.

    Okay, sorry don't know how much the drive experience cost.

    Love the idea from Maisiemai of the hot tub and the book. 

    My friend had a strawberry tattooed on her cheek when she was 40 (not her face ) and I just imagine when she's an old lady it's going to look really shrivelled! My MIL informs me she has a wrinkly bottom! Sorry all if too much information!

    Can you sponsor an owl at an owl sanctuary maybe? 

    Xx

    Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Bobles2

    Hi all, Elenium I think maisiemae has given you the end to the list!!! They all sound wonderful , I hope you have a lovely birthday although it will be tinged with sadness I do wish you the best possible day 

    This road to recovery from the darkness of grief is full of peaks and troughs but today for me a peak which I want to share with you. Good people do exist, I have had wonderful support from my friend and business partner over the last 2 years as Jill's disease took hold , very supportive and understanding but today he blew me away with his kindness. He and his family(wife and 3 grown up kids) are going on a luxury cruise and they as a family have booked me on it with them, I was so overwhelmed I can't tell you. He said if I don't physically go away then as things in my personal life are now I won't have a real holiday, they know I won't go alone and they consider me part of their family and they all wanted me to join them . How lovely and kind.... so in 3 weeks I am off to sea . Good things happen, nice people exist, true generosity and thoughtfulness are just around the corner , I am touched by the gesture and I know my beloved Jill will be laughing as I get sea sick on a day boat trip at Scarborough ha ha 

    Hope some kindness falls your way soon , take care all x

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Sailor Yantibee, enjoy every moment of it. Seems they really are family - what a wonderful gesture with generosity of heart and spirit. Delighted for you.

  • Oh Yantibee, how lovely.  The kindness of of some people really is amazing, isn't it. I do hope that you have a great time and don't get too sea sick.  :-)

    I am almost at the end of my list.  Maisiemae has given me some good ideas but some were already on the list so I still need a few more.  I think I need free or cheap things to do now as a few are a bit expensive and it would cost me a fortune to do all of them!

    Thank you for the birthday wishes.  I will miss mum as we would have shared the party, as her birthday was so close it mine, but I will raise a glass to her and send her my love. She would have wanted me to go ahead with the party so that's what I'm doing.

    Hugs to all.

    X

    Elenium

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Yantibee, how wonderful. They say that tragedy brings out the best in people! Enjoy!! Xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Yantibee that's such a wonderful thing to do. That's magical.

    Pleased for you. I get v seasick too but everyone says these big cruise ships are different. 


    Hug.


    Jx

  • Yantibee, it's lovely to know you have such support and amazing loving friends.

    Now, enjoy. As Jenny says, cruise ships are so stable I believe so sea sickness won't be a problem I'm sure.

    Xxx 



    Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.